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$140 bucks later, my laptop is working again! No more cold trecks to the library every day! Just goes to show how much technology and the world wide web is so much apart of my life now. I can barely go a day without it if I know I can get to it. I'm sure I could have gotten used to no internet, but it really is almost a must for me. I need to be able to stay in touch with people to NOT go crazy!

Speaking of staying in touch with people, I get to see Krissi and Anna in less than half an hour! I'm so stoked to see them. I really wish Jo could have come out with them, but at least we can catch up and they can spill me all the latest news from home.

Last night Jenn and I had a pretty intense conversation. She really made me look at myself from someone else looking at me... Assessing where I am in my life and where I want to be. And all the confusion in between which really is INSANE and I can barely wrap my head around everything when I really sit down and think. What do I want? How can I get it? Why don't I feel comfortable with who Sharon is? What's missing? What do I need to change? How can I change that? Who is Sharon? Questions go on and on. Sometimes I really wish I had my own personal psychiatrist. I'd lay everything out and then HERE, you figure out what's going through this brain.

I know that there's something big out there for me. I have no idea what it is, but I'm willing to give myself credit that I'm not a failure... But I really have to work at what it is I want [once I actually figure that out]. It makes me excited for the future, excited to really dig into myself and go through the piss and shit that kills people. It's time for me to think about what I'm passionate about and start pursuing it.

I really think last night was kind of like a breakthrough for me. I needed someone to talk to me. I needed to realize that this will never get any better if I don't work at it. Good thing I'm willing to!