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I'm definitley feeling homesick today. I miss my brother and sister so much! I get to see Jo in less than two weeks 'cuz she's coming to visit for my birthday, but I won't be able to see Daniel until late April. 3 months isn't that bad, it could have been longer, so I'm greatful that I get to go back before the summer starts to see my family again. But I still miss them.

I have so much anger inside of me right now. It's a weird feeling and I wish I could just take some happy pills and feel better. Unfortunatly, that's not the way it works. I'm struggling through these feelings that are making it hard for me to enjoy where I am. And while I'm struggling, it's making me mad. Probably doesn't help that I was sick later on in the week and don't feel like I've really recovered. Minus last night, I've been in my PJ's all weekend.

This is not how I pictured where I would be in my personal life. I'm so different from other people my age. I mean, yeah we're all at different points but I feel so cheated. Which in turn, makes me angry. Ultimately I have all these choices to make... Choices that will determine who I am and what I do, and I'm angry that I have to make these choices in the first place. Why is being human so frusterating? Why can't I be more happy for other people rather than wallowing in my own shortcomings? I get to a hump in the road and it just seems like it's this continuous potholed road. One thing after another.

I'm tired of doors slamming.