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Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking,
it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

[1 Corinthians 13:4-7]

I obviously don't love you like I thought I did.

...I just wanna move in already!

"Hey, where's my clothes?"
"I put them away."
...."Where?"
"In the closet."
"Oh."

I hate looking at you 'cuz it reminds me of her every single time I do.

lesson of the night: chocolate fudge geleto is dangerous if consumed in large quantites. it's super hard to concentrate on pictionary after eating that!

I hate headaches that just won't seem to go away. I swear I've overdosed on this friggin' no name painkiller bottle and still there's just this constant pounding. I guess these are what migranes feel like?

It's weird not really knowing the night before if i'll be working the next day. I've marked the weather network website as a favorite, but Anna and I won't know until maybe 7:45 in the morning whether we'll be working or not. Unfortunatly, painting houses depends on if it's raining or not.

Last night I had a dream which I remembered parts of when I woke up. I was preggers and I gave birth to a boy... Instead of at a hospital it was at my grandparents' old beach house. And I remember wanting to name the boy I had Aidan but then couldn't decide between Aidan and Adrian. While in Edmonton, we talked a lot about dreams and their meanings so I looked up what giving birth might mean.

"To dream of giving birth or see someone else giving birth, suggests that you are giving birth to a new idea or project. It also represents new beginnings or some upcoming event. A more direct interpretation of this dream, may represent your desires/ anxieties of giving birth or the anticipation for such an event to occur." [This is taken off a site called Dream Moods.]

So considering I'm currently not expecting... Yes, suprise suprise... That definitition is pretty much on the nose. There's a lot of stress in my life right now, and I didn't really think of moving as one of them. But I guess somewhere in my subconcious, I'm thinking about it.

If you're interested in knowing more about dreaming and sleep cycles and all that fun stuff, you should check out . It's a really fun tool if you can remember what you've dreamed about or even if you're just curious about it.

i heart second moms & second homes & comfort words.

i'm so ready for a day full of rest! these next couple of weeks are gonna be difficult, and i'm full of apprehension and already feeling stressed out :-P but that's probably because i haven't felt this tired in a long freakin' time. laya and paul's wedding was amazing, i haven't had so much fun in a while! it was an awesome expierence and everyone had so much fun supporting them! i'm so excited to go through facebook pictures of the ceremony and reception. but that'll wait for tomorrow because crashing is next on my list of things to do!

i keep replaying a certain spill canvas song in my head. it's bothering me. a ton. especially when i'm tired and iritable and just want to get you out of my head.

bestest friend in the world award goes to...

i'm sitting at the computer.
daniel comes up to me.
looks down.
there's $40 sitting right next to me.
he picks it up.
he looks at it.
he puts it in his mouth.
he chews on it a bit.
then he says "ew" and spits it out.
you had to be there.

thanks for driving out to come be with me. i'm at my lowest and you're always there. always. you know when something's up, and you put me in top priority to make sure i'm okay. i honestly can't express to you how much that means to me. to know i always have someone.

& thanks to the people i talked to at church & at lunch for recognizing that i'm not feeling great. it's encouraging to me to even be asked a simple question like "how are you doing". thank you for the love, and i know i'll feel better by next weekend. it's hard to admit publicly that I'm feeling depressed and super low. so i'm gonna get in bed and tomorrow will be a new day :-) hopefully sunny!

ps. my brother plays acoustic guitar & sings... and he's good. and by good i mean fantastic. he's playing right now and it sounds awesome. i'm really happy to hear that him and his close friends are supporting each other with their music, and it really is so freaking sweet to hear and watch them all do their thing. i'm so excited for them!

keep me in your thoughts.

the only word that's coming into my head right now is a swear word.

Jesus Christ, that's a pretty face
The kind you'd find on someone I could save
If they don't put me away
Well, it'll be a miracle

Do you believe you're missing out
That everything good is happening somewhere else?
But with nobody in your bed
The night's hard to get through

And I will die all alone
And when I arrive I won't know anyone

Well Jesus Christ, I'm alone again
So what did you do those three days you were dead?
Cause this problem's gonna last more than the weekend.

Well Jesus Christ, I'm not scared to die,
I'm a little bit scared of what comes after
Do I get the gold chariot?
Do I float through the ceiling?

Do I divide and fall apart?
Cause my pride is too sly to hold back all my dark
And the ship went down in sight of land
And at the gates does Thomas ask to see my hands

I know you'll come in the night like a thief
But I've had some time alone to hold my lies inside me
I know you think that I'm someone you can trust
But I'm scared I'll get scared and I swear I'll try to nail you back up

So do you think that we could work out a sign
So I'll know it's you and that it's over so I won't even try

I know you'll come for the people like me
But we all got wood and nails
Tongue tied to a hating factory

But we all got wood and nails
Your tortured (and hanging) factory
Yeah, we all got wood and nails
Your tortured (and hanging) factory
Yeah, we all got wood and nails
And we sleep inside of this machine