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Woot! Swing Dancing tonight with my ladies! I haven't gone for more than a year, it should be a blasty blast. It's gonna bring me back to CBC days when we went all the time!

I feel so... excluded, out of the loop, awkward... whenever I go to my church. I've been calling it my Mom's church to anyone asking what I'm doing on Sunday. I'm not sure if that's me feeling distanced from a place where I used to feel like home or if it's just me being ashamed to admit that I'm going to church.

I really do wish that I still had that connection, and I realize that that's nobody's fault but mine. Hopefully I can find a church in Edmonton where I feel that warmth again. I'll have to remember to ask Neal and Jenn.

Edmonton. In. 10. Days. Holy crap. I'm getting super excited! I started packing up yesterday [I know, I know... should have been packed up ages ago], and putting away all of these memories in my memory box [Yes, I know that I'm extremly girly], is kinda tough to do! Also fun though, cuz I've been reading journal entries, notes, etc etc. And I know that I'll be making more awesome memories in the next year.

So this next week is gonna be difficult for me what with the whole packing AND saying goodbye thing. Gah. I wish that I could take my friends with me! And my cat lol, but don't worry.. No bitterness Jenn. Maui will be happy with Tanner and the rest of my family.

TWO days til Jenn gets here, FOUR days til she gets back to Edmonton, TEN days til I join her and TWENTY days til the Toga Party. LOL.

TONIGHT was the most awkward, halarious encounter that I've ever had...

Me and Said Friend were having a chat and carmel machiatto/orange frap and Starbucks, chilling on the outside tables when I hear this squeeking sound. I causually look over into the playful laughing eyes of a boy of 12 on a bike, squeezing the handle breaks casually and grinning at us.

So of course, I can't concentrate on our conversation, and every time I laugh, the boy laughs. I try not to encourage him and don't look his way. After 5 or so minutes of the laughing and squeezing of squeeky breaks, he bikes away.

I look into Said Friend's eyes and we both laugh, with confused "WTF" looks. We're still laughing at the awkwardness of it, when the 12 year old rounds the corner and stops yet again feet from us. This time I look pointedly at him wondering where his parents are when he starts entertaining us with his talk.

Now, this whole time I honestly don't know if this child is mentally handicapped or just a regular kid trying to get some laughs. At one point I actually look around for a camera in case we're the newest subjects of a YouTube phenomenon. So I can't really laugh at him, since I don't know what's up with him but I do have to look into the window the opposite way and stiffle some giggles.

"Did you know that Starbucks is made out of cow's shit?"
"I swear a lot when I'm out of the house. Like say fuck and shit a lot 'cuz my Mom's not around."
"My Dad says my Mom is a crack addict." --> At which my oh-so-halarious friend says, "That explains it."
"You should replace all the B's in the alphabet with F's. Then Starbucks would be Starfucks."
"Do you have herpes? Can you buy herpes? Can I get herpes?"

By this point, we feel efficently awkward and decide to jet into the nearby Safeway to ditch the child. He starts following us and saying something like, "Well, who will I talk to?" At which point I mention the group of older people sitting outside having a smoke. So as we walk away he goes to the group and says, "Um, those people said to ask you about Herpes." as he points to our hurried bodies escaping into the store.

WOW.

Don't ever do drugs, kids.

I'm at my dad's.
There's spiders at home. There's spiders here.
I feel as if I'm being attacked by them.
My heart rate is through the roof,
I'm not sure if I'll be able to sleep.
But that's not cuz of the spiders.

There's this red light blinking on the phone right next to me.
Probably indicating that there's un-listened-to messages.
Suprisingly, it's not driving me crazy.
But this space bar is so loud.
THAT'S driving me crazy.

I thought a lot today.
I had quite a bit of time to myself.
So I thought.
A lot.
About past, present, future.
Pretty much everything.
I was sad and happy.
I probably even laughed,
by myself,
alone.

I'm looking at the spider that I smooshed on the wall.
I was very brave in smooshing it.
I jumped up on the desk and took one of these
DVDs that are lying here.
[First Night with Sean Connery to be exact]
And I smooshed it before it could scurry down the wall,
Right to my feet where I would be unproetcted by its venom.

I hate spiders, I really do.

Tonight was good fun all around.

I was able to finally spend some time with the loud blonde one [lol], and a couple other "friends" hahaha! We went to Ihop for supper... LOVE pancakes for dinner! And then we traveled to Castle Fun Park and made attepmts and beating each other at every game we set our eyes upon.

It was good seeing Erica, I haven't seen her in a month since she moved out of my suite! And it was also good seeing Jake and Ian. Although I must put in writing that Jake really needs to chill with the whole stalking Erica thing lol! Sheesh boy. You're... 22? Seeing Ian again was good. He's a very interesting guy.

My mom showed another 2 people the suite today. Looks like she'll have no problem getting someone in for the 1st of September! I'm leaving in 22 days! It's crazy. I'm excited to see how it goes being away from home. Wonder if I'll survive. Some of my friends are saying when I come back for Christmas, I'll stay home.

I'm super stoked to see Neal and Jenn of course. I saw Jenn last Christmas but it's been forever and a day since I've seen Neal's beautiful face so I'm quite joyous about that.

It looks like my kitten staying here while I'm gone is growning on my Mom. I can't take her with me because Jenn and another roommate are allergic, so I've been trying to convince my Mom to keep her her. This sounds lame, but I'm gonna miss Maui more than most of the people I'm leaving behind lol :P She's my baby, I'll be counting down the days til Christmas when I get to see her again!

So obviously I got tired of having to do EVERYTHING myself with having a google blog. I like the simple lazy way of just typing in my url, clicking post, typing whatever, and publishing it. Google pages is WAY more complicated for my likings, more for the use of a real website.

I'M FINALLY DONE HAPO. My lord, I didn't know what to think at first when I had finished. Seriously, the first word out of my mouth was "NOOOOOOO!!!" Not sure looking back if it was dissapointment or just the realization that it's FINISHED. Anyone who wants to talk about it, I'm all for it. So if you're not finished DON'T CLICK THE COMMENTS SECTION. If you do, don't get mad at me for spoiling anything.

I honestly don't feel like I should be doing anything right now. I feel that I should be showing my respect to Rowling's characters. I wouldn't feel RIGHT about going to watch a movie or anything right now! I just wanna grieve over the loss of a beautiful thing. And to think back in the eighth grade I was refusing to read Hapo 'cuz "everyone else was doing it". Thank god for my Mom and her forceful librarian ways.

....I still wanna marry Ron...