Share's Sharing

my little sister graduated tonight.
it was so fantastic!
she looked stunning & i'm
just so so so happy for her!
i'm going to make the best of
this summer before she takes off
on me to attend uvic.

she's beautiful, smart, peaceful,
halarious, and overall the nicest
person you could ever meet.
she holds my family together.
she deserves the best and i'm
so happy i'm here with her.
i love you as far as the east
is from the west, johanna.
i hope you're having an
amazing time on the cruise,
you deserve the best!

ALL MY LOVE AND MORE,
congratulations grad of 08!

Share is...

Currently sitting in "My Pants", listening to the Beatles, waiting for "Lost" to load. Eating cherries, one menthal cigerette by my side [don't hate, it's not a pack], smiling about last night and oh so happy that the Ciprelex is finally kicking in. Or maybe it's just a damn good day.

Last night was great! Melissa FIIIINALLY turned 19 which is awesome. For obvious reasons. Her mom is so sweet and tons of fun. And Mel looked SO cute last night!

I'm stoked that it's summer and we don't really have to have a real reason to get together and have tons of fun. And it's nice that there's one more friend who's of legal age ;-)

My mom read my journal.

I feel like I don't have a normal "mother-daughter" relationship with my mom. We're either fighting like two cats or we're the best of friends. Maybe that is "normal". But I've always been honest with my Mom about things happening in my life. She knows the good, the bad, and the ugly. I rarely keep anything from her. Except sometimes. When I put it in my journal.

My journal is the only place that I'm 100% honest with myself... It's something I have always done and my journals mean a lot to me. Having someone read between the lines of my life isn't something I am too keen on. Especially when the excuse is, "Well, it was just lying there..." Holy respect my privacy. And the worst part of it, is she's come clean to me and now she's grilling me on each and every thought that I have.

This is why I have a blog, Mom.

I like sharing what is going on with my life... To an extent. I can choose to share what I want and keep what I want. You've violated that. And for all I know you could choose to hold issues over on me and use it to your advantage. It's not fair to me, and I already am SO open with you.

Guess I have to go pre-teen here and find a hiding spot for it...

i pulled the whole "i'm late on rent cuz of you" excuse to my boss so he'd finally pay me. this morning is the moment of truth... supposedly anna and i are finally getting our cheques. we'll have to see if he pulls through cuz i've heard his line of "i'll meet you with your cheques" before.

it looks like thursday and friday are gonna be rain days. if that's the case, at least i have a couple of days to set up my room at mine and beth's. it's finally happening. beth and i are so frusterated, and we can't wait to start putting together our place. i would be going crazy if i was her. she's been living in the suite for the past couple weeks even though she can't technically do anything to set up [minus her room]. so i'm happy that it's finally getting sorted out.

there was a mis-communication with us yesterday, and i thought that i could move in. so i took maui and all of her stuff, got there and it still wasn't ready. so i had to leave maui... who's so freaked out :-( i'll be going back tonight though, i feel so bad for leaving her.

i'm excited for the weekend. i get to see some people who i haven't seen in a while, and celebrate melissa's 19th birthday! i'm feeling better than the weekend, so hopefully by friday i'll still be excited and ready to go out and have fun :-) it was so great to hear from erica :-) oh, and today's heather's last full day here for a while before she goes to NYC tomorrow!!!! i'm so jealous! she's going to have so much fun!

i hate not being able to sleep. i hate the feeling where your mind is awake but your body is tired. i hate having no money. i hate that i'm not moved in. i hate how i'm not happy. i hate how i can't speak my mind. i hate 32 foot ladders. i hate how i don't matter. i hate father's day.

I'm so freaking tired of getting dicked around with the housing situation and the job situation. It ends tomorrow.

Hey Lovely:

I love you if you're a size zero or a size 50; That will never change. And if you "gave me space" I wouldn't be able to stand being away from you.

Take a deep breath and remember all the people in your life who love you to bits and pieces. You don't have enough fingers for all the rings you would own. Or toes.

I hope your day was fantastic, and I hope tomorrow's even better.

it's days like this that i wish i had a desk job. or a rich husband. preferably the latter.

tonight was the most fun i've had in a long time... which really isn't saying much since i've been a hermit for the past couple weeks... but i had a good time. a group of us walk/ran at the "relay for life" at bear creek park. we put some energy drinks to good use and a few of us walked and ran for the first few hours and then chilled and had fun the rest of the time. they had music and games and karaoke. my sister kicked butt at this game that they did on stage called the "dating game", and had a whole bunch of guys cheering for her which was super funny. krissi and some of the other girls sang spice girls on stage. my brother and aaron tried several times to get the dj to find songs that they were going to do karaoke for... which he had none of unfortunatly. they finally settled on "rocket man" just as the cable cut out so they weren't able to preform but we were all looking forward to videotaping them up there. the people who put on the relay did an awesome job organizing it... it was fun seeing so many people there. and now we're going to sleep our saturday away. g'night!

i know that tomorrow's going to be a "rain day" so i stayed up late to watch "step up 2"... i can't resist dance movies :-P none of my friends [minus a select few] understand my love for hip hop. i still insist that my mom secretly listened to biggie and tupac while i was in her tummy! honestly, i liked the second "step up" movie better than the first dance-wise. and music-wise. the first had better acting. but c'mon, i'm watching a dance movie for the steps not the acting. k, bed... i've been tired all day, but i had to push through to pick the brother up and then thought WHY NOT to a movie. so i'm gonna kick my dog off MY bed and get some sleep before i'm woken up by my siblings in the morning.

It looks like every day except Thursday this week is going to be a "rain day". Rain days = not safe to work. Good news? Anna and I have finished our second house so that means two paycheques are coming our way soon. Plus I can sleep more! We're getting to know Coquitlam area really well :-P Yesterday we had lunch with our boss who shares our sense of humor, so it's really fun to hang out with him. We went to a BBQ on Friday in Vancouver... Kinda awkward for us since our boss was the only one we knew... The three other guys we work with didn't come so it was a whole bunch of people from the other teams around Vancouver and Coquitlam. But at least we're making a slight effort to be included in the work shinanigans.

The plan for me moving into my new Delta home [around 116th and 83rd] is hopefully going to be executed on the 14th of this month. Beth moved in on the 1st with her new kitten... The landlord's daughter's "stuff" is still piled up in my room, so I can't move in until she moves out. Which she's saying will be by the 14th so here's hoping.

My "secret" was posted on postsecret for this week!